testify to love

ok i'm sorry but this is going to sound a bit moody


sometimes you feel like you've achieved a lot
sometimes people think they've achieved a lot
but achievement or true success cannot be measured with assets, wealth, awards or fame..
if you go home at the end of the day thinking about how great you are, then you've achieved nothing


there are two things that cannot be independent of each other, and that is giving and taking.
that's just how the world works.
and there is a particular someone whom i wish could see this, understand this and stop hurting people who do not deserve to be hurt.
you're not that great. in fact, you aren't great at all.


oh anyway, i found out that there's a fine line between disappointment and sadness
they're not the same thing although they feel awfully alike
and when you feel them both at the same time, it's like a double whammy.


u know, i tried. in feb i tried. they didn't need a third person then. then in june i tried. it was expensive. in december i was given a chance and failed. end of dec i tried. jan i tried. it was expensive too. it's been a year but i tell myself: without failure, true success won't come. i know i shouldn't take it so personally.. i know the circumstances were difficult. deep down inside me, i believe that this is just the beginning.


and on a lighter note, today turned out to be a fruitful day.. had lunch with mummy and yaya at parkway. went to ntuc and bought groceries. went to school and met with andrew and talked about this term's plans. (thanks for being so supportive!) EXCITED about the event in may. plus 2 R&R days. hard to get!! i think i really need to go for that one..i want to! dinner and after-dinner-walk was timely. the company was great. reminded me of the time ashwin abang and i went to the dam after eating at jalan kayu again. the 2 things always come together. sweet memories.


my new slogan is: hard work doesn't pay. hard hard work does.


shall visit pepsi and zsazsa when toh gets back(hopefully with good news)